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Tomorrow is my birthday.

At first I was going to slip into my old habit of ignoring it, but being around friends changed my mind.

Making it through this year is something to be proud of!

SO much has happened. COVID almost took me out and that wasn’t even a major point. It’s been a struggle. It’s been a fight. BUT I’M STILL HERE.

And not only am I here, but I am full of love for and from great friends, who mean the world to me. I have feelings for an incredible man, and though I don’t expect that to develop into anything, I am truly happy just to have him in my life. I have my boys, who frustrate and amaze me every single day.

And I have myself.

I have not let the fire go out. I am still very much me, as weird and emotional and intense and silly as I ever was. I love who I am, flaws and all. I’m continuing to work on myself. For the past year, I have been a lot kinder to myself on the inside. I’ve taken better care of my heart, mind, and soul, and I have gained a lot from that.

I have not, however, taken very good care of myself physically. That will change, though.

That’s not the only upcoming change. I have plans. I don’t know how many will actually happen, but I know the first step is moving to a place where progress is possible. I’m working on that, and I don’t plan on stopping there. I will not give up. I will not surrender.

So I have many reasons to celebrate! Life is chaotically wonderful and I can only hope it will continue to be so. Just like this post, which went in a completely different direction than intended, I hope that the next year is filled with unexpected twists and turns. The good, the bad, I’ll take it all! I’ll let it shape me, strengthen me, and bring me closer to the ones I love.

Because, really… isn’t that what life is all about?

~ 💜 ~

My main goal for the next year of my life is to commit to true love. Romantic, platonic, love of life… any and all that I can get. But it has to be real. No more playing around, no more tests, no more teaching lessons or taking on something I don’t feel, just to help someone else. From now on, it’s real, or it’s nothing.